Back to normal

Satshriakaal Mausam,
I was in california at the start of this month.I surely had a fabulous time at that great place. The whole atmosphere in a wedding house is always so captivating;There always is a constant buzz around the house. I was in another world. But then, like all good things, it came to an end as soon as I landed back in Boston on the 5th.
As expected the reality of the impending GMAT stared at my face. So much to accomplish, so much to consummate and so little time. The target GMAT score of 700 became a one point agenda. Constant reminders to myself of "this is it!"," now or never!", " i wanna get this by all means" took itz toll and I went into a shell. A self enforced hibernation which for me is always accompanied by bad mood, depressing thoughts and general quiet behaviour. I have been so hell-bent about achieving the score of 700 that I lost focus of my own self.But somehow yesterday I realised, "Ajj Kaim, what you doing? This is not the way you want to live your life. You should just do whatever you think is right without worrying about the results and stop bothering Waheguruji by reminding him how important it is for you to get a score of 700. If he thinks that itz important for you to get that score he sure will grant that request.You should better live your days happily and enjoy this time,so just stop cribbing and start living".

So finally today morning, I got rid of the unkempt look and had my first shave after nearly 10 days and as the clean skin appeared from underneath, the thoughts became more clear. Every wipe of the razor blade reminded me of the promises I made to myself, not to ask any more favours from Almighty coz He has already given me enough. So here I am back from the mini-emotional turmoil. I still want a score of 700 and i am gonna work for it but it aint a question of life and death anymore. I hope I am right.
Regards,
Ajj Kaim