...doubts...

I think it happens to all of us.......v reflect bac on our life...think abt how v dealt with situations,how v tackled the difficulties,how v managed to hold on under adverse circumstances.... and also as to how v intend to live the rest of our life..v think abt such stuff all the time..... These dayz I am also on such a whirwind trip....trying to think abt my motto in life...
During my college days...career was the last thing on my mind.....I was more concerned with how to live each day to itz fullest....laughing..partying...dancing....well these were the only things v did....all my friends had the same line of thinking(probably thatz the reason they were my frndz!) .....but that thinking altered during my stay at the university...i dont know if it was beacuse of maturity or was it because of the changed circle of friends....but now the aim of life was contentment...v thought that a man can never be happy if he strives for materialistic things because there was no end to what one can achieve..v have to be happy in any given circumstances.....i thought this was all i wanted....just to be satisfied with watever i achieve in life..... Now i am in noida......in the company of highly motivated people....who want to reach for the skies ..make a difference in the world...they drive happiness from success.....greater success... these men r truly ambitious....and this is completely different from what i thought all along.... My whole gamut about lifez philosphy has turned upside down.....
Now i dont know what i should do?whatz my thinking ? should i be satisfied with watever i do...or should i be ambitious?? is contentment all i want or is it the easy way out....am i scared of hard work that i chose the easy way out????do i have an opinion of my own...or is it just watever feedback i get from others....my frndz changed my thinking when i was in university....my brothers r changing it now.......wat am i supposed to do????am i just plain dumb who dosent knw what is right and what is not??? I dont know what i have written...but the turmoil is immense......I better just study...and like Johnny Depp says in movie " Donnie Brasco"...forget about it!