Dear Mausam,
When was the last time I was truly happy? When I say truly I mean that I was so happy that I couldn’t think of any other thing, I was just happy. When there was nothing to bother me and I was plain simple-Happy. I don’t even recall when that happened. My already poor memory fails me and I don’t even remember if I have ever been truly happy. I think as long as I remember whenever I thought I was happy then I was not really happy it was just a momentary feeling which brought a few smiles…a little laughter…sometimes a lot of laughter but heart in heart I have never really been happy. How that real happiness does feel like? Will I ever get that feeling?
Mausam- Ajj Kaim, u always say that u r happy when u listen to music so why these doubts now?
Ajj Kaim- Mausam when I listen to music I go to just another world which is away from all the worldly ways, it’s something which is my escapism strategy. I have always been an escapist, sometimes by chance, sometimes by choice. Doubts creep in every now and then. Will I ever know what my destiny is? What do I want? I am not living my life, I am just breathing. What have I achieved in the 25 years of living? Have I made a positive difference to anyone’s life? Have I made any effort ever to really help someone? Ajj Kaim wake up! Look around. You have to take stock of things, itz been way too long since you been neglecting the truth which has been staring right at your face. Get hold of your life and find a meaning of this life that you been blessed with. You don’t like computers, you are never tuned in to the latest technology, you have never been really fascinated with fast cars. The normal things don’t appeal to you at all. What you gonna do, boy? Life isn’t easy. I hope 10 years down the line I don’t regret about the choices I make today. It’s well past 1 now. Get some sleep! Tomorrow is another day,I hope it isn’t as bad as my usual days are.
Regards,
Ajj Kaim
5 comments:
how true Paru...the things that appeal most of the guys arnd do not make a count in our lives...even i wanna knw the meaning of what I am doing...what am I here for...10years down the line ...i don't wanna regret..but is their a way we cud know what possibly are we meant for?
Dear ' don,t be passimistic and feel that low.25 is young and there is a lot of time ahead.You will be happy if you start thinking of a short time as ten years is a long time .you are going to be successful
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Yes Paru you have made a positive differnce to somebody's life.
mmmm.... if i also start thinking , what happiness is? how it feels like?from where to get it? who can give it to us?when was i really happy?
then i think even i will get lost , finding the answers!
-i find living the moment , u r in, is what matters.
...it can b a person , sometimes the work u doing,. n so.. which can add some good moments to our life.
what all this"happiness"feeling is- ..something deep inside our heart only . to feel it we need a positive attitude towards life,.. attitude to find good in everything v do or see... v just need to see beauty in everything around us..
(though the things might b going worse.,idiots all around.,doubts all over.,..)
but a simple thought that everything, what all s happenning is for some good.. wil help us to go thro it happily.
..just go on living ur present moment,coz v r dead to past & unborn to future!
u r thinking what wil happen after 10 yrs? ..can u tell what wil happen after 10 minutes??? is there any answer? nobody can answer it! 10 yrs is a long path to go.. it might b full of hardships(but that will polish u to b a diamond) or all blossoms in ur way(thats what u deserve)or a mixture of both!(thats life)
what all wil matter is doing, what u r with all the hardwork u can put in & positive attitude .
success will definitely be yours!so dont keep any doubts!!
we ,ur friends & dear ones & our best wishes are always with u..(be happy to have us in your life)
hey! u wil surely reach for the stars one day(i m sure ,that also before 10 yrs).
all the best my dear friend!
...i just know one thing, i m happy when i m with u :-)
u definitely give me something to be happy about, which i cant explain! but the thought u are with me always,and consider me a really good friend of yours.. give me a feeling, that i can certainly say is "happiness"
doesnt matter how far u might b living, how often u might be talking or writting to me.. what all matters to me is - "u care for me & will always be with me as my best friend"
hey!just always be with me.. coz ur presence makes a great difference in my life!
i really care for u and will pray to god to give u my share of happiness too!
coz u deserve to get all the happiness in this world!
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